eating a burger with no honey mustard
Sznz old rd.s r getting outta my mind
Eric: Yeah we got ... snakes
Hannibal: ... with human traits. They've got emotions, and they cough, and they watch TV shows... (sighs)
Jimmy Kimmel: ... You have snakes with human traits?
Hannibal: mmhm.
The pain of losing something, for me, is two-fold. First, the lack. There is an activity which you once undertook, which is now altered by the loss of this object. Now, you must find a new implement for this thing, which once was trivial, because you owned something for it. Now comes the searching, in the least likely places, multiple times to be sure, so pitiful and subtly physically strenuous. Bending over, moving, shifting, seeing the same things you've seen over and over.
And now, a second pain. A slow recognition that you need to find a replacement for what you lost. For me this is not a beautiful opportunity to get something better. No, now you am unwillingly thrust into the role of the shopper. You are forced to consider the one thing in your life that is garaunteed to matter: money. Now comes the searching for deals, the banal research. Normally I am able to regard the position of being sold something with a tired eye, now I must allow myself to be sold to, since the act of the sale is inevitble in this situation. And then the sale, the reciept, the number, the tax, the delivery, the plastic package, the bus ticket. And because I am sick to the joints, whenever I look at the thing, the dreaded replacement, I am reminded of this trivial, priveledged pain. Oh how, how could you waste like this. How could something dissapear? You just got to experience the greatest magic of our time: making something appear with money.
August 31, 2023
First, you need to come up with a story for yourself. A simple lie about your goals, one that is fluid. "Bask in the excitement with you" -On signing the media release form.
How is labour conceptualized in this space? Labour is not labour here, it is experience. As a student, you do not expect yourself to be necessarily useful. The decision to hire you is seen as generous, you should be thankful for the experience and the oppurtunity to gain it. This labour is cheap and eager.
This is a process of person-making, and a narrowing of the personality. How does the social relation between employment-seeker and the hiring manager make us more similar to eachother? The process of becoming-more-like-those-around us seems natural, but does every social formation include this process? When we are developing our social personality, we base it off those around us, but this process continues much further than that. Are we becoming flatter, or closer to eachother? Byung-Chul Han speaks on distance in The Agony of Eros.